So it's been a while. I started my summer drawing course. It was only for three weeks, this week is my last. I confronted him about "us" and my feelings on May 12. I got his non mutual response. I thanked him for letting me know and I've been trying to move on since then. It's not really working. I'm still thinking about him a lot more than I should be. However, I believe it's less than before. I suppose a little bit of progress is better than none at all.
I'm hurting, there is no lying about that. But it's not the pain I thought I would feel. I overestimated my feelings for him, after all it was only a few hours we spent together. Of course, this is coming from the one who believes in love at first sight and soul mates (I don't believe there is only one person meant for you). I also believe that any love is worth it, even if it doesn't last forever. Even if it's doomed from the start. I believe that feeling of "at least we tried" and all the happy memories that are in between the beginning and end is worth it all.
My drawing course has been allowing me to focus on something other than love, so I do have a fear that once i'm done this course i'll have the free time to think about him. But I'm trying and I suppose that's all I can do at this point.